okie..there has been a question dat has been bugging me. i had
told myself i wud have absolutely nothing to do with him again, to
show my hatred, when I saw him this morning, I looked away and
refused to even say hi to him. Yes, it is sad the way things have
to turn out...and to think I used to think that our friendship has
so much potential to blossom into a beautiful relationship. but oh
well, it is just simply not meant to be. i think he implied dat i m
not smart enuff for him, so now i m more concerned abt my studies
than ever, i want to show it to him dat i can do it.
I remember last time...i promised him dat i wud take him out on his
bday. i told him dat i wud make it a very big celebration for him,
and i even planned what to buy for him. but with the things dat are
happening now, i dun feel like celebrating his bday wif him
anymore. i can't even look at his face without getting all angry
and disappointed, how can i even have dinner with him? but i am
sumone who really hate to break my promise. so i m not sure what i
shud do. i wanted to bring him out last time because i felt like i
owed him for the amount of money that he has spent on me thruout
our 'dates' but now...
i really dun wan to hate him. but sumtimes i cant help it. i m
immersing myself wif my work right now and it feels good, but i m
still hurting inside. i do not think i can face him even as a fren
again. so ppl, tell me what i shud do when his bday comes by next
year?
i.c.y
