Firstly wanna thanks all those whu replied to my post..I guess u
guys r right...i too blinded by her looks and words.. i too blinded
by love to react in a clear mind...
anyway i called her last night again...and this wat
happen....
Called her last night at 9pm cos i wanted to know how she feel. she
made her point clear,saying that if i didnt call her, she wouldnt
be bothered to call me.. and i kept quiet. Den i ask her if she was
very vexed ( cos she sound vex)
den she told me abt her fren being caught for drug traffickin and
all his fren, including her wan to help him with the bail money of
50k.
Said tt she will sell her passport and tt one of her guy fren even
gay wif a guy for $$
I blunted out " bail him out for wat?", den she started to scold
me. She say i was ignorant and i selfish..she say i live in my own
world, and everything also think abt myself only..
Her world is totally diff...
In my world, I only have good frens
In her world, she have all the "good" fren who will help each
other.
In my world, I treasure my family more than anythign else
In her world, she treasure her frens more than her parents.
In my world, i am selfish and think only for myself and not
others.
In her world, she will go all out to help them.
I finally realise we r so apart from each other. She only recognise
those bad company as good frens...ppl who r honest and decent as i
am, will onyl be classified as busybody and dunno her "world"
i didnt wanted to quarrel. So she stopped and ask me call her
later.
Den i called her at the time she stated. There was no answer den i
msg her to miss call me when she is finish doing wat she wanted to
do.
Called her last night at 11pm...she was in the car....I asked her
why didnt she miss call me..she say tt she knew i will call her no
matter wat...
AT this moment i think she had total controlled over me, she even
knew i will call her if she didnt even bother abt me..haix...
And that she say is now on the way to "work"
I begun to wonder, what kind of job she can have at night? Bar girl
or prostitute?? I dare not think, so i questioned her.. In e end
she scold me for being very annoying and hang my call..
I didnt sleep the whole night..at 3am i sms her tellin how much i
worry abt her.. She replied " dun be lame leh, my lao gong beside
me, and he dun like u to sms me, can u please dun"
Total sadness overcame me...i knew tt it was impossible for me to
even be fren with her. so i msg her that" is that guy the one u owe
money?? i worry u do bad thing, and that death is not the worse
thing that can happen to her..i get it now..and will leave u
silently.."
She replied "wat that guy owe money? dun say until my bf like tt
le.. U should have get it all along...yah i know death is not the
worse thing, i am going thru worse. I not doing bad things"
Haix whu knows...why she had to hide wat she doing from me..
Den came a call from his bf, i didnt wanted to answer coz i knew
wat he wanted to ask me to stop contactin her.
Before that, she sms me, warning me tt her bf was going to call me,
even sms me 3 times to tell me becareful wat i say to her
bf...
i dunno wat she meant la..wat can i possibly tell her bf...unless
she also hiding stuff..
I sms her bf hp to ask him to take good care of her and he
agreed....then i tried today very hard to control my
depression..and now i in office...in a daze...
i dunno why a girl can change so much in a week, the week before
she was really sweet and nice, and i also know from her mom tt she
can be really nice to a person she like...haix...why tt moment is
taken away from me...
Anyway thx all those ppl whu helped me ....it over between her and
me...i hope one day she will really change...hope the best for
her
