Nelstaer dear,
i seriously hope you are not kidding here...
A forum is for people to voice their opinions, so watever sarcasm
you've seen, let's put it aside. People have their rights to say
watever they like.
But if you are genuinely here to seek guidance, then I shall share
some advices with you...
Some forumners are right. Since you still have time to turn to this
forum, then you are really not ready to die. I think you are still
very young to have such thoughts. Have you ever really thought of a
way to die? Have you thought of the consequences if you are
paralysed due to a suicide attempt failure? That would have hurt
yourself and your loved ones. To really DIE, you need tons of
courage and I can tell you, it is not easy.
1) Jumping off a building - Yes, you will surely die. Call it a
bimbo thinking. But can you imagine the disgusted remains of yours
after the deep impact on your brains? All the intestines flowing on
the ground? No, it's out! Too ugly.
2) Popping on pills - The most common drug used for suicidal cases
is Panadol. I tell you, 20 - 40 pills of Panadols won't kill you,
instantly. You will only end up having suction in the hospital and
worrying about the after effects which will kill you. The effect of
Panadol will only take effect after 24 to 48 hours. Slowly, the
paracetamol will affect your liver function. The amount of
paracetamol allowed in a human body is 20-30mg. Any more than 50mg
could be deadly. 20 pills of panadols is equivalent to 230mg of
paracetamol. Imagine the amount? If it is severe, your eye balls,
skin and urine will turn yellowish due to the mis-function of your
liver systems. Once that happen, you will suffer from liver
failure. And gradually, you will suffer hell before you can really
die.
Some may say, take more than 41 pills of panadols lor. True, but
then, do you think you will have the strength and ability to do so
at that time? You will already start to feel weak at that time and
you will start to vomit out some of the panadols.
3) Cutting your wrist - Can you really bear to do it? It's god damn
painful.
I could only think of these methods at the moment. But anyway,
cherish your life. If your parents couldn't understand you, turn to
your friends. Find out where does the problems lies before you make
any decision. There is a thread on counselling numbers to call too.
Please check it out.
As for your dog, if you cannot stand the 'hatred' your dog has for
you, then, give him to your friends or SPCA.
All the above are juz my 2 cents of opinions.
Look straight, think positively.
