I guess this is not about being in
depression now. It is abt the way you choose to think about things.
Like me, You are obviously a person who is easily influenced by
others and the environment. However, I am beginning to realise that
people and environment changes consistently and you cannot be in
control of it. Hence, everytime you get affected by it you may
choose to move to another place and this process may go on and on.
The pattern becomes obvious that unless you change yourself, you
probably won't be happy. Some things in the environment will change
if you choose to change your thinking.
Give you an example. I miss home alot and constantly tell the world
that I don't like being in SYdney and yearns to go home. I tried to
make myself feel better by moving from house to house. Yet after my
sister and mother came to visit, I came to realise that it was not
that bad after all. I missed home and because they came to stay
with me for a week that it was them I missed not that this place
sucks. It is still not as good as home and SIngapore but it was not
that bad. By changing the thought, the days seemed easier to pass.
More positive about staying here for the term though going home was
still at the end of the agendas. hee.... Hope you see what i
meant.
