I had an ex that was with my for a couple of years back in
secondary school, but during that period of time she cheated on me
twice. Her reasons were valid... I accepted it, but the second time
I just left her. After about another couple of years with minimal
contact, we met up again when she returned to Singapore for a week.
Although we only spent 2 days and nights together, the feelings
flourished again. She apologized for the things she had done,
saying that she was immature, reckless, etc. But it's the past,
I've let it go.
And so, we got back together. At the same time, she's trying to
struggle free from a relationship that doesn't work out. She
claimed that she has broken up with him. She did say we shouldn't
shoot off so fast this time. During the days in melbourne, the
chats we had were so convincingly about having a future. She said
she needed sometime to be alone, to settle things with her ex. Just
a few days ago, she messaged me that and told me to ignore whatever
messages her ex send me. But during that night, either her ex
forced her to type the following, or it was her ex using her msn
account. The questions asked were very probing, asking what we've
done back in Sg, etc and said we have to cut ties completely so as
not to complicate matters. It totally contradicts what she said to
me before that. It all dictates to this poem :
Do not be infuriated at my response,
For my heart yearns for thy love,
I long to be in thy arms night and day,
But time and distance keep us both away;
I struggled and broke myself free,
From a love that i discovered was not to be,
So here i sit and mend my heart,
Gather the pieces that he tore apart;
Thou art so perfect in my eyes,
A being that holds no disguise,
That is why i keep away from thee,
For what i want is true love to be;
I cannot love when my heart is dead,
I cannot smile when i cry in my bed;
All i ask is time for me,
To get over this tragedy,
So i can love thee with all honesty,
And not hurt thee again.
Since that 'confrontation', i haven't seen her online... and I
refuse to call her.. don't feel right... Please advice?
