i can't really figure out wat is wrong wid me. I'm a 20 yr old
gal, who wishes to have a normal life like any others. but it seems
that i can't walk out of my own world. i do have guys asking me out
for dates. but i get jitters or become very bothered by it. my 1st
date was a movie cum dinner wid my senior. i wouldn't say i dislike
him, but i was trying to prove to myself i can do it. but that date
ended up quite disastrious. coz i didn't dare to look at him in the
face and even when we're walking, i keep a straight face and was
looking infront, instead of having eye contact.
now i have a guy who wants to date me out for coffee or something,
but i feel weird. we known each other 2 yrs back, during an
exchange programme. it was thru tis programme we knew each other
existed and after tt we went our separate ways. and tt means we
only saw each other for 3-4 days only! we still keep in contact but
somehow, he will msg me out of the blue moon asking for a date. in
the beginning, he even called me 'darling', which i felt very
awkward. he also asked me for my home no, so he can call and tok to
me. but after some thoughts, i told him i dun hav the habit of
friends calling my home, esp guys. but i told him its ok for him to
msg or call me on my hp.
sometimes i think i have low self esteem, in the sense that i'm a
little plump. but my friends all convinced me that i'm ok. i do
have a joyful personality. but sometimes i think i'm just not rite
for them. sometimes i even think guys who like me have their eyes
stuck onto their butt, meaning they have low taste.
is there something wrong with me? or am i just not ready for a
relationship? wat shld i do? i'm really very confused and
bothered.
