She and I have been together for years. I realllie enjoy those
days when things were much simpler and carefree. As years goes by,
conflicts arise and at times I give in to her. I'm also helping her
as much as possible sometimes financially. I helped her pay her
bills first, pay for hp, sme misc stuffs, and it chalked up to a
few hundred. I dont mind cox she is really a nice n sweet girl,
honest too. But, sometimes when I tell her that, she must start
paying me back bit by bit, she wuld just try to avoid the topic.
Kept saying she doesn't have that much money. I tell her slowly, I
don't mind but not to the extent of not paying month by month.
(She's working nw) I tell her, if keep delaying, it ain't doing her
good at all. Sometimes, she wuld just say "ok la, I'll pay u la and
give u all wan?" what is this, making me feel guilty bout taking
money from her? It's my money am I wrong?
Just now, went to find place to have dinner, ride bike to lau pa
sat but no place, never mind, I say wan go pasir panjang there eat,
she say ok. Reach there give 50cent look. Ask her wan food, say
don't want, what she want to drink, also dunno..Ok, I buy my own
first, after that, ask her again wan me buy ginger tea from store
beside, never give me reply, wat is this, talking to air!!!! Ok, I
buy my own drinks, then I see more light dessert ask her wan or
not? Give half fark face. ok, thats it, I'm really takin to air.
The rest of the dinner, don't feel like talking to her. Sent her
home, ask me why I don't talk to her. for wat!!! Talking to air fun
is it....Am i giving too much, too caring and treat her too nice
that I'm taken for granted? Then she will just say "ok la ok la, my
fault can or not" What, then in the first place do it for what when
u know it'll be wrong...
Sometimes I wonder, am I still clinging on becox we've been
together for years? Sesh!!! I need guys and gals advice
