For those who know my story, Ive come to a decision regarding
our relationship.
Ive done all I could, but guess Ill always play second fiddle to
her commitments & friends
& cont feeling inferior.
Actually, I kinda of envy her
always seem to have endless queue of
ppl waiting to meet her..
On the contrary, I can hardly find any company on most wkend
most
of my frees have their own lives, even my parents go out on a date
together on sat
sometimes I feel so unwanted.. 
I can find company easily during sch time, but on sat or public
hol, it seems everyone prefers to be with that someone special
always feels like someone bordering on the outskirts of life
I never felt much except for a subtle sense of loneliness. But
after 2 relationships with someone so busy, I jus felt a need to
re-look my life.
How do I keep myself more occupied meaningfully? My sat schedule is
somethk like that: 
morning go swimming alone; have lunch myself ( my
parents go out), maybe wash car & pack up room, wash tv..
occasionally meet a fren for coffee..
Sometimes I do long for more human companionship, but rely dun know
how to move on.. 
