what does it shows when i read her a letter that i wrote abt the
things i've thought about; admitting mistakes and the willingness
to change, she cried. bet her eyes must be swollen for days. but
when i asked her why she cried, she said.. " when i watch sad
movies, i cried too"
but on the other hand, she was determine to let go; to give up all
the n years of relationship.
sometimes, i really feel very confused.. are there still hope for
us? thou... i'll be going back to spore in days time.. i'm really
worried. couldn't sleep and eat well.
I've thought about all these in different point of view. some may
says why after all these years.. then she voice out? why only after
n years of marriage? personally i feel that she did it at the right
time. the environment and situation that i'm in now that allowed me
to think much more than i know i would do back in spore. The urge
to change things round is really strong. Never felt so much about
changing myself. Placed my ego above everything else in the
past..including her feelings. really regretted.
I've told her abt the forum page that i've wrote. not sure if i
should let her read it.
I'm open to any opinion. like to hear more from helpful souls out
there.. to see things in different angle which i might have
missed.
Not gonna make another mistake.
BTW, i liked to thank all whom had replied. I can feel the force
supporting me.
Thank you.