Chapter
13
I finally reached. I became like a zombie; totally dead and
lifeless. It was as if some part of me disappeared and never
returned. The pain was excruciating. I wanted to yell, but my heart
made no sound as though it was sucked into the black of hole of
circumstances.
I shouldnt even have expected anything at all. We were such good
friends right? Maybe good friends should always remain as good
friends. Love has been around, but its about us, the choice we
made that made a difference. I can choose to love her, but doesnt
mean that I have to be with her. Illogical? I called it
respect.
Why are you giving excuse for
your failure. You know deep inside, you dont feel this
way
I shook my head violently to dispel that thought. I was going
insane every second.
STOP! STOP! STOP all
these! I was screaming to myself.
Then, my phone rung and I had a chance to refocus my attention. It
was a private number.
Hello? I asked and there was no reply. I knew it was Rain.
Anything you want to say to me before I go off?
It doesnt matter to me whether you chose him or not because my
love for you is more than just possessing you. Since the day I knew
you, never had I have the opportunity to make any
choices Its always you who determine what we should do
when we
should leave, when we should run, where to eat, who have to eat the
peas
sitting by the swings
your letters or even going home or
even going over to England.
Have I ever say No to you?
No
because love had taught me to respect and be happy. Why?
Because its YOU.
You made the choice.
The one decision I ever made for myself, concerning us
is to love
you. Dont have to say sorry because its my decision to.
I knew she was crying too.
(To be continued...)
