Dad just said I may have to do NS. He got PR cos he works here,
and so my mum and I automatically become PRs as well. We are
foreign citizens, I have only been in Singapore for 6 years
schooling. And i might actually have to serve NS?!! I am pissed
because it just does not sound fair, how come all the other white
PR's children dont have to go?
But NS itself is not the problem. Its just that I am already
struggling with suicidal and homocidal thoughts in school cos of my
lack of socialisation. I dont think I can bear to spend 2 years
(mondays to fridays full TIME), in a barracks with a bunch of local
people, in the same sort of "-segregatory-socialisation-thing"
which i currently face in school now. I fear out of anger, from
being dissed by sergeants and ignored by fellows, i fear I may
really lose it, already its hard to find weapons in school, yet
alone a barracks? Haha I can imagine the headlines "Psychopath
Foreign Eurasian freak kills Singaporeans in Army barracks.
Minister says this is the result of letting ANYONE go into National
Service".
Help me. I am suffering now, i dont want to suffer even MORE later
on. This is psychological suffering, not a physical thing, dont
tell me i am weak physcially, I could take on anyone of you small
people!
