StarPuppy,
Wat's impt is Not to rate ur own depression. Wat's impt is tt u DO
realise wat has caused a vicious cycle. U're depressed, which leads
to aggressive behaviour, which leads to pple Not liking u which
will in turn, lead to a deeper depression.
Thus, the choice is now up to u. U've taken a fall, & now u noe
the pebbles tt haf caused u to trip. Do u now wanna remove the
pebbles, or do u wanna juz leave them there, trip over them over
& over again & juz simply sit there & cry for
help?
Pls understand tt I'm Not here to scold u, I'm here to help u, so
pls try & listen to the suggestions I'm gonna give u:
1. U noe u're antisocial: Make an effort to smilez more. When pple
r depressed, they tend to smilez less, & tt makes them look
aloof & unapproachable. I'm Not even gonna ask u to start
becoming a chatterbox immediately. Juz take baby steps. Start by
smiling & returning greetings like "Gd Morning" or "Hi".
2. U used to be v. quiet but now u're disruptive & u think
swearing is fun: Swearing & cursing in foul lang is Not the be
all & end all of conversation. Imagine someone speaking to u,
& after ev. word, is a vulgarity. "Hi StarPuppy, how're u
@#$%&*( doing? My @#$*$% life is still the same, all the
@##*( % @ school & the same @*@#(%*$% teachers." Some may find
it fun, but there're oso others tt find it offensive or difficult
to understand 
So keep
swearing to when u're tokking to the guys (who can accept it) &
when u're really angry, if u muz swear @ all.
3. Pple hate u: I'm juz speculating here, but it may be due to wat
they perc' as aloofness or aggressive nature/actions. Again, I'll
ask u to take baby steps. Juz start by smiling & returning
greetings, & mebbi swearing less.
4. Get bullied, get into fights: Pls speak to someone abt this, a
teacher or ur parents. But most of all, pls start wif urself. Being
abit more frenly may actually send u into a gd cycle once
again.
5. U're v. self-conscious & u care abt wat pple sez: Then why r
u still swearing? Why r u
still displaying aggressive behaviour? Wldn't u rather pple
remember u as a nice person when u graduate from sec sch/JC? Or wld
u rather pple remember u as a total @#$%$???
6. U haf a v. hot temper & can't tolerate even the smallest
thgs: Here, start wif baby steps. When someone stares or glares @
u, instead of glaring back, juz look away. I'm Not asking u to
smilez @ them, they might think u're trying to be farnie. Wat I'm
asking u to do is to drop the aggressive behaviour. This may
actually lead to less bullying & less fights.
Ultimately, StarPuppy, it's up to u. Personally, I think u're
intelligent, otherwise u wldn't even haf listed out ur problems so
clearly in the 1st place & asked us forumites to rate ur
depression. Thus, I believe u're intelligent enuff to make the wise
& courageous choice.
Gd luck!
RP
