I wonder... does love btwn male & female really take
priority in our lives at a certain time? I do see many posting here
lamenting how they got ditched by their stead & such... (no
offence here...) But... wat abt other "loves"? Love btwn family?
Btwn frens? Btwn things u do?
Yesterdae I was playing an online game when my buddy wanna tok to
me abt smth. He said I was behaving as though I was emotionless. He
said I was unappreciative when it comes to give & take. Dat I
seemed to not show any signs of appreciating for wat ppl done for
me.
I admit I do seem unappreciative, but deep inside I DO appreciate
wat ppl done, juz dat I dun show it. Call it a man's pride or
watever. I cld not respond to their kindness. The reason y he tell
me of this flaw I have is bcoz he can tell me straight in da face
& I m WILLING to listen. Unlike da remaining of my gang where
it needs a more tactical approach.
He oso told me abt da prob my gang is currently facing. U see, da
reason Me, my buddy & da gang have been together is due to da
sole reason of "gaming". Imagine when "gaming" is removed. Is there
anymore to tok abt? Anything else to remain together for? Bar me
& my buddy, da rest cant find another common purpose so dat we
can remain together.
1 of my fren in da gang is too engrossed in "gaming" & coz of
dat, he is somewat starting to make every1 of us "du lan". Whether
he noe or not is 1 thing, but when hes not in da game & da rest
start "toking" is another. My buddy fear dis frenship is coming to
an end. A frenship dat was built for more than 4 yrs (me) & 8+
yrs (my buddy) is going to end?
Maybe my buddy is over suspicious. Maybe he got it wrong? But I m
sure both me & my buddy dun wan DAT to happen. So many YEARS of
time, pain, work & effort to build dis relationship btwn all of
us. Da bond is smth dat is so special, dat neither any1 of us is
willing leave or break it. I believe dat shld it happen
(TOUCHWOOD!), it hurts HELL more than normal bgr... & I dun
have to mention family... Parents took da years = yr age, time,
pain, effort, $$$ & much, MUCH more......
& yet I have so many frens of mine complaining to me abt break
ups, loneliness, probs in r/s, crushes, blah blah (NO. I m NOT
shooting on dis particular part of bgr) & yet they seldom tell
me more on frenship? more on family? Maybe they do not noe... or
they TINK everything is ok... But... I dunno... I juz felt they
shld show more concern to their family & frens...
I do not noe wat else to sae... I oso dunno how da hell I tot of
trying to post it here too... But I do noe: despite wat I ASSUMED
to be alright btwn family & frens, I seemed to have overlooked
so many things dat I tot to be "normal"... I seemed to have taken
things for granted & those who hoped I appreciate wat they done
r hurt in da process... without me realising it...
Dis prob, I intend to settle while I can... hoping to tink in their
shoes & learning to appreciate & letting them noe I DO
appreciate wat they did for me...
I juz wanna tell u all here dat some1
out there might be doing alot of things for u, yet u do not noe
it... & may have hurt dat person alot. Take dis chance to tink
thru...
I also want to take this opportunity to tell ALL in here (forumites
1st, especially those I met), that I appreciate what u all have
done for me:
Thank you IamAngeline for being such a wonderful
person, willing to crap with me so many times, listening to me
& many many more.
Thank you AngelDark, Defrosted, En', Lilogal for
the time we are together, crapping about so many things, fun time
& such.
Thank you Dev, Yun, Bear & many others for the
long essays & knowledge I learnt from all of you.
Thank you Cherish Love, thhong, DS, Xian89,
Sillyme, MoonIce, rest of "LASH" ppl for the nice birthday outing
(I really enjoyed it) & for many other things.
Thank you Narz jie, www, antoh, HOFs gang, Sians
gang for that KTV outing & crapping, & other things
too.
Thank you Lynette80, Wendy81, FireIce, AudleneLee,
Honeybunz, Delusioned, Millenium, Sgboy2004, X-men, & many
other interesting people for chatting with me & more.
Thank you everyone else for making this forums
great as it is.
Thank you Jason for creating this great forum for
all to share (you made this forum, right?)
Even though these are just mere wordings that are typed out &
sent digitally, it is not easy for me to muster out the guts to
tell you all here. If there is a chance for me to meet with any of
you, I will appreciate it & thank you.
I sincerely Thank You all in here.
