just wanna share... guess my case is really similar...
I love my ex gf very much too.. never knew how much I love her till
she told me she wants to break up. that's when I know that I will
probably love her for the rest of my life. I was really devastated
when we broke up.
she says after we break up, she wants us to remain friends, well it
has been almost 2 months since we broke up... she never called, she
never mailed, not even a single sms. I called her asking her to
reconsider, she was very confused... It hurts me to see her this
way, I forced myself to let go... I wrote her an email telling her
that I will let go and never turn back anymore. She never replied,
just like all the other emails that I sent.
I have tried, I wanted to move on. I still miss her very much.
thinking about all the things we did together... it is really hard
for me to forget her... when I go to the movies, and I see some sad
moments, I remembered how I would wipe the tears from her eyes, and
ended up crying myself thinking that I can't do that anymore.
I have to try very hard not to call her, and I didn't call for the
last 2 weeks, I finally called her just today... she was having
dinner with her new guy, she sounded happy, well guess it is going
to be like that. I am worried I might give her the feeling I am
intruding her life, therefore I just tell her that I will call her
next time, and hung up. But I guess I felt better too hearing her
voice, and knowing that she is happy, hoping that the other guy out
there is treating her better than I did... not that I treated her
badly, but I must have done something wrong if she were to leave
me...
I tell myself, I will learn to be better, I will wait for her, just
in case she wants to come back... I will always welcome her back
into my life. I don't want her to come back to a loser, I want to
proof to her that I am worthy of her. If she don't come back, well
she has found happiness anyway, so I should be happy too.
I love her very much... always will... and like Bear, I never
blamed her for anything, I tried, but I cant, I can only blame
myself, Why there is so much I wanted to tell her now, but I never
told her before we broke up.
but I guess what's happened has happened, maybe she'll come back,
maybe she won't. I'll still hope she does, but in the meantime just
get on with life, move on... and let the future unravels
itself...
