knowing she really loves me, somehow i neglected her during our
3rd year in r/s. i took her for granted. cos i start to feel a bit
'sian' together with her. my thought that she will never leave me
had proven wrong 5 mths back..
i always picked things on her cos i always feel that she should do
this, she should do that. only when she mentioned to break up, i
start to panick. at first i agreed to respect her wish that we'll
be friends for the moment and let nature takes it's course. at that
moments i didn't actually allow us to be friends. i showered her
with care, hoping that she'll come back to me. but things got worse
when i stress her on patching back. slowly, i realiased that i'm
actually disappointing her time and time. i managed to tell myself
to stay cool, and let things happen naturally. i did it. i did not
stress her on r/s. i changed to a different person who really care
for his gf. after a period of time, i asked her how's the chance of
we two patching up. and her answer was... "i dun think we can be
together again... you have changed to a better person, and you'll
definately make a very good bf, but i no longer have that kind of
feelings for you.."
i realiased i can't hang on to her anymore. i decided to leave her
without a word. she e-mailed me, telling me that she is angry at me
for leaving without a word. for the past few days i have been
ignoring her like an idiot. still i decided not to reply. it's a
good cooling period for me, temporary. after abt a month, the
things we did start to flash back... i know i still miss her, still
love her deeply... i messaged her... i told her i still love her. i
asked her does she miss me during this period.. but her answer
wasn't what i expected...
i have been thinking all these while.... she said she used to love
me deeply... but the bond we built up during the whole r/s,
doesn';t allow me to have second chance? it's not as if i never
change.. i have changed, even till now i'm still my changed
self...
btw, i'm 23, she's 21...
