I'm sorry to hear about your deceased friend. That is part and
parcel of life. Take it in your stride.
Firstly, why are you in a r/s with your current bf? Are you having
problems with your current bf that J knows off?
Secondly, when you mentioned you still think of J, is it really
becoz of memory that's why he still lingers around in your thoughts
or are you thinking about him, wondering why is he not the one to
be holding your hands and standing next to you?
You mentioned you do not want to msg him to inform him about how
you're feeling. Guts feeling tells me you didnt do just that becoz
you don't want J to pity you and that you do not want to look
fragile to him. (I may be wrong) Search deep within yourself and
you'll know exactly why... (bear in mind, you first mentioned you
felt you got nothing to tell him thus not msging him, when he
probed, you told him you didnt know how to put your words to him.
Which is which exactly?)
hm... much as there're guys out there who are very sacrificial,
telling the girls they like that 'I'm happy as long as you're
happy'.. deep within lies another meaning and that is 'whr on earth
can you find someone, like me, who don't mind someone they like
being attached and still wishing to see them being happy?' many
times they're just out trying to make you go off-balance, having
doubts about your current r/s and make you feel unstable. Becoz
offhand you will think, 'what am i going to do to this guy who's so
good. maybe my bf is not as good as him...'
I hope I make sense to you, bcoz to some girls and guys out there,
it's always about this thing call 'challenge' and 'thrill'...
please cast away all doubts on your r/s if you're indeed having one
now. You shouldn't be swayed bcoz of what J told you, but on what
you believe in.
Cheerz...
