I have come to a vivide realisation when i analyze the mind of
any local Singaporean teenage girl in Jc or sec 4... here is my
research as follows>
Even though I am a part of you people with my blood, it is Chinese
tainted with French and French tainted with Chinese, either way I
am still a part of your race/culture as I am with the
Caucasians...
However unlike most Eurasians (who share the same blood bond to
both cultures) I look more Caucasian in nature, most brother/sister
Eurasians like myself, they look more malay or Asian rather than
Caucasian. Someone commented to me that I hardly had a hint of
Chinese in my looks.
So my point is... probably the local girls shun away from me
because I look so different from everyone else in school. I don't
know how else to see it, girls having fun conversation with all the
other guys who are local and LOOK LOCAL, whereas in my case...no
social thing with them and I do not look local... I am half an
outsider to your culture and I LOOK TOTALLY OUTSIDERISH.
Hence within each and every local Singaporean girl's mind; exists a
mechanism which (has been conditioned by history lessons; regarding
European history; as well as hollywood media) is automatic in
nature; this mechanism will cause the girl to shun away from any
guy of differing looks from Asian...
Even though you can argue that "Race has nothing to do with it;
look around you; we got Indians and other people", well that is
true; my friends are Indians and Malays and they get on well with
the girls;;;;; they certainly get more conversation than I do...
but then again; These boys all group under the category of
"Asian"... a category which I am part of... but I do not look like
I am part of it... do u understand my logic?
So I am convinced that this world is based only on Perception...
not truth... and I don't like this fact about local girls... damn
you all for forcing me into this position. ;(... I hurt and I
ache.
