"wounds can only heal with time,
but long long does it mean?"
30 June 2003
2026
just came back from exam and was feeling tired.
has been like 6mths for A and 3 mths for B........
Seems to be like system incompatible but yet was so close tat
time.
we seems to be able to chat like friends on phone, but whenever our
eyes meet, just feel like turning away.
just called A an hour ago....
out of my expectation, i still feel for her.
a feeling which i never felt b4. if i were to use words to
describe, i would say it is something between care and
disappointment.
feel like toking to her however i cant seems to be open to her so i
choose to retreat for it is something which i like but will not
ever get. so i end it fast.
i knew our road will never cross again. somehow i know
thoughts ran throught my mind.......
7-8 mths ago
"sorry i dont have any feel for u, but i hope u will find someone
better"
i blame myself for being incapable and draw a line
"dont worry, i will not do another thing or say another word"
tat is when a beautiful friendship ends....
i weep in front of a baby crow which i found......
a while later
she is attached and it was someone who is quite well off....
subconsioiusly, still blaming myself for a loser.....
perhaps she deserve someone better.
some time back
some of my friends and i tok about her and they say she is always
spoted with many different guys.
and when i mention tat she is a "feel" person, they reply "Ya
right!!!"
there was once i took a lift with her and her bf
i am standing bet them, i tried to stay cool and look on the
ground......
but my blood was boiling and my breath picking up.
she quickly pull her bf out of the life once the door open.
present and reality
live life as it comes.......
i just hope i will be release one day.....
To be continue..........[/u]
