okay.. i just knew this girl who is a sales girl from one of the
shopping centres and yeah, she is attractive, nice hair , elegant
and carry herself well. When she called me last night, we enjoyed
the conversation for at least 1 hour talking about life when
suddenly she began to talk dirty with me. Its like wtf?!? She began
talking about how smooth her breasts are and such. I was thinking
if she was nymphomaniac 
Anyway, i went along with the "show" and sooner or later, i began
to get horny as well but thats another story 
So, i asked her then if she wanted to go
out this Sat despite knowing that i haven't recovered from a bad
breakup i had on Friday night. I seriously do not want to implicate
her in as my rebound girl but on the other hand, i just felt the
urge just to f[/i]uck around with her just like what my ex did to
me who went around fuc[/i]king around with other guys.
But then, the third side of me tells me not to involve in another
relationship till i am 25 where i decide that i should be
responsible for my own actions and such. So, to culminate, 3
different feelings are now existing in my mind,body,and soul i.e.
Jealousy,Sensibility and Jerkness(if the is such a word
haha)....
But what's funny is that now that i am single again...gal frens of
mine began to ask me out often....hey hey hey is that a good thing
or bad thing? 
I am trying to cheer myself up
even when i know my heart is not in the right state and is nursing
its wide and gaping wound. Its my first time being hurt and its
just my own desserts for the many hearts i broken and i swear it
isn't a good feeling. 
