Erm... just to side track a little - next time if you want to
post essay, remember to do it in paragraph... difficult to read in
a chunk, but well, you still get your message across me. 
Who hasn't a past? You knew it deep inside that she 'WAS' a lian
and lian knew little about love until they live out of it - not
speaking from my preception, rather from friends that I knew. She
discover nature of men and to make things worst, the company she
has - bengs, people who approach her, etc, behind the mask they
wear, she would see them like glass - their hidden motive. Since
you knew that she was a lian, had such a past (your feelings and
action continues) AND It didn't stop you from liking her, therefore
you can't complain about her past because you CHOOSE to accept it
subconsciously. She ask you out, you could reject her - but you
didn't, therefore you wanted somewhere within yourself. 
She chose you - because you are (or seemed) DIFFERENT from those
who attempt to woo her, because if you feel the same, she wouldn't
even fall for you. I assume that both of you weren't together yet -
actions speaks louder than words: READ the sign.
By the way, Love don't cost a shit - so what if people has the
money? The feeling you give to her is richer than money could
subsitute.
Let me ask you one frank question for you to reflect: Are you
hesistating because she is not a virgin and just using the mum
non-existence problem to excuse yourself? If you are telling me
that her mum strongly reject you being her bf, then thats another
story - but has this fear surface? No!
Deep within you, you know she loves and the same for you. Your
heart is subdued, just that your mind is experience equity problem
-when you love someone - it goes beyond just what you will get
*from* her, rather what you can *give* to her. You said if love
someone can get her go - you are totally right, but the big
question is that HAS she GIVEN YOU up for ANOTHER GUY? No!
You feel sad that she has lost her virginity - that is her past and
you do not have any contact with her past - you can't do a thing -
therefore you shouldn't even get bother. Think about this: if you
were to met her prior before that jerk came into her life: things
may be very much different.
Ask you another question: You love her? Or love that piece of
membrane?
You can find another girl who is a virgin - you can never find
another person who that same feeling. She has told you about her
sad past: it is YOUR PRIVILEGE, not your right. Since it's a
privilege and she trusted you to know: Do not mis-abuse this.
Everyone has that lame past - but if they were to learn and grow
from it, it may not be a bad thing. Think about this, if she hasn't
gone through such situation, she most likely may not even like you
and may still be with that other guy.
Love is to accept: if you can't - you forgo all the beautiful thing
it could give to your life in exchange for your self-absorbed
thoughts that will get you nowhere. You have a choice now: give it
up and you could lose it forever. Hope I don't have to see another
topic done by you about this issue.
Prays
