As for the broken ties or trust, I could only say sorry, u dont
have to trust me also, or return ur trust in me to the initial
level ok? Never a need! Dont bother! Just dont let me, what Ive
done, disrupt ur personal life, carry on as usual, nothing happen,
u dont have to believe me anymore but believe what I wrote
here!
Dont be impressionable, dont mind what I ve done, u ve to
forget the bad past! Dunno how to put in word leh! Im dont feel
sad, emotional writing this, neither should you! Just carry on with
ur life as usual, family as usual, everything as usual
. I dont
know how to repair this trust also,,,,,,,,, never feel a need to do
it, sincerely n frankly, I just hope u dont feel sad or anything
or heartbroken! Serious! I really mean it! Im long-winded
again
..u could still trust my sister, my mother of course, but u
can choose not to trust me! It is really not that important! I
promised, swore not to worsen the trust, just leave it as it
is
ok?
(Listen carefully! Whatever happened recently, if uve discovered
something amiss recently, it is just a left-over debris from the
past disaster, just like the photograph lah
.uve misunderstood
already!) okokokokokokok simply, dont have to regain your trust in
me, dont waste time, dont bother just dont brood about it!
Simple right! Recently n in future I will be doing nothing to cause
break of trust, worsening of trust or anything bad in the house, I
retired already, very sianz.
About helping me, actually I hate ppl helping me, I dont like to
be told what to do, just like you or everyone else lah! Okokokok,
very complicated now! How to tell you the finer n intricate details
of my character n behaviour.. I do it another time, very hard to
explain why? Just let u know, Im caught in between my dream n
reality
very hard to solve, very hard to switch, cannot abandon
both of my dream n reality either
... so Im somewhat very confused
very blurred like sontong, dont know what to do, just like when ur
bios is infected by virus
only thing is to replace the whole
mother board, dispose the infected bios away! But can you dispose
me away?
. First u think Im like Jack Neo, same low education n got the
brain n brawn to be successful!
.. Im not, sorry u dont
understand at all!
Then I filled u up with all this words, u said I must be coping it
from somewhere, I said NO! Im not angry with you but I need to
clarify
..not some much as to show off or prove to u or anything
but I just need to BE MYSELF, ACT MYSELF, THIS IS ME, WHAT YOU SEE
NOW IS THE TRUE ME, NEVER SEEN BEFORE IN REALITY..im always like
this in my dreams all along
but not in reality.fk it!
.then u got feeling that I shouldnt have a problem with life
since Im understanding, I could express myself so clearly HERE!
Right?
.but I cant face reality, I cant do this in reality Im
caught in my dreams half of my soul
..
Human brain is so complicate, believe me!
U dont really understand the truth yet! Dont bother also!
Carry on with ur life is the better part of understanding n a good
solution now!
