Dear ApPlE_PiE,
pls dun ever say tat u r not good enough for him, i'm sure u r a
nice ger but relationships are hard to say. After reading ur post,
i wanna share wif u my story.
I fell in love with my friend, he's those kind of guy whom
everybody thinks that he's not worthy of me but actually i think
i'm not worthy of him. Anyway, at first i juz treated him as an
ordinary friend but actually he's interested in me. One day, he
hold my hands, i was shocked but i didn't refused or whatsoever, in
fact i felt warmth and comfort when he held my hands. It was as if
sunshine was finally shining into my unhappy world(i'm having
family and other problems). As days passed, we do things tat
couples would do but he still haven't asked me to be his gf and i
never mentioned anything abt it. Then one night, he told me tat
he's a guy who cannot be serious in a relationship and he said that
he'll get tired of it easily, my tears juz flowed down, it was till
then tat i realized i love this guy, i can't pretend tat i don't
care. We still meet up after tat, i act as if nothing happened, i
was thinking if we can remain this way, i can still see him, i dun
need to be his gf, i juz want to be by his side, see his smile... I
dunno why, he's the one who couldn't take it, i hold him and he
sang a Andy Lau's song (tai duo tai duo de bao qian), i cried coz i
know from tat song tat my love was too much for him to bear and
tat's his decision. I knew we couldn't be together anymore, he
din't cheat me, i'm the one who's willing to give my everything to
him. We didn't contact after tat, i was in depression (maybe becoz
of some other problems), i was mad at everybody and myself, i
pratically refused everybody's calls and did a lot of stupid
things. Then my aunt passed away, i dunno how and why, i juz felt
tat i muz be strong, i can't carry on like this. I spent the whole
night thinking over it and listening to tat song and i finally
thought it over.
In every relationship, you'll learn something good from it. I did,
to love someone is to let him go and let him be happy. I was happy
with him and now i don't hate him, i really hope we can still be
friends although i know he don't want to. I learn to be strong and
not run away from reality. Life is short, it may not be perfect but
all you can do is to make it better for yourself. You don't have to
forget abt ur ex, juz forget abt the nasty things tat he did to u
and treasure all the sweet memories tat u both shared.
I believe everyone of us will find tat special someone one day, if
u keep on brooding over the past, u might let ur true happiness
pass u by. Like u, I still love tat guy very much but if i insist
on keeping him with me, he will be unhappy and i will be miserable
too.
Hope u can get over him 
~phoenix81~
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Never say i love you if you really don't care
Never talk about feelings if they aren't really there
Never say forever cause forever makes me cry
