I know of this girl for 5 years, & in the first year, I went
out with her a number of times & found myself in love with her.
I brought her to one of my friend's BBQ at Pasir Ris & there
was once when she was scared, she hugged me. However, she fell in
love with another guy who was at the BBQ that night just like
that..
I was wooing her for so long & the guy just got her so easily..
I was really sad to see that.. but I did not give up. Until
somewhat later, I felt that I was not good enough for her &
decide to backoff.. I did not contact her for about 2 years,
however, she did SMS me some little messages, & I did called
her once or twice.. During that period when I called her, she was
always so happy to hear my voice.. Recently, in Nov2001, I gave her
a call & asked if she wanna meet up, At last she agreed &
we met. She is still as sweet as before, & I can feel that I
still have the feeling for her. From that day on-wards, I met her
on an average of once a week, But she seldom smile like what she
was before. I treat her well enough that if it were to be on other
girls, it would have been clear that I am wooing her.. even her
god-sister can see it.. But think she only treat me as her "DIDI",
which she always call me that.. But I don't want to be her
brother.. I held her hands when we been to places where she has
difficulties walking.. The feeling of holding her hands is like
never before. when I carry her on my back, I feel myself on cloud
nine.
So many guys is after her, I might not have the chance at all.. I
talked to her before about this guy who is also going after her,
& she told me that this guy treat her well but will not
developed into a relationship.. She also told me that she still
loves her ex & no one can be like that guy.
I am afraid that if I tell her that I love her, she might avoid
me.. that is something that I don't want it to happen.
I really don't know what to do, whenever I asked her out, she will
say she wants to stay at home, she got appointments, she wants to
sleep.. I couldn't stand these kind of excuses..
