This is my first post in this forum. I think that, by writing, I
might be able to vent out my frustrations that have been bothering
me for quite a long while.
I used to have a really intimate friend, but suddenly for some
unknown reasons, he started to avoid me half a year ago. In case if
you are wondering, no, I am not a gay; I do have a gf. It is just
that I am very close to this friend because of the time we have
both shared.
We had attended the same classes, lived in the same hostel, and did
everything together. For example, he even did English essays for me
because his English is much better than mine is. Ironically, when
he did the essays for me, my English grades are always a tad better
than his are. For that I am grateful. I had a great time then,
because I thought I have find my best friend.
However, things started to change when we came to Australia. We got
into different university in Australia, and because we live quite
far away from each other, our contact was minimal. That was fine
with me; I am satisfied to receive an occasional phone call from
him. At times, if we were both free, we would meet up for lunch
during the weekends.
What I do not understand is why he wanted to avoid me 6 months ago.
He suddenly did not answer any of my phone calls, and I have also
tried to contact him through friends, icq, emails, but to no avail.
I cannot think of anything I have done that might have offended
him, and I gave up trying to reach him.
I think life has to go on, I managed to retain my composure and not
look sad, and be expressionless or just smile, even though my inner
self is crying out. One thing, I do not want people to worry (that
is if there are), and secondly, I would rather be professional than
to show all my emotions to other people.
Regretting what was lost has become a regular thing since then, and
whenever I am on the bus, pensively looking out of the window, I
tend to think of my past school life and what has went seriously
wrong.
I would be thankful if anyone has any suggestions to help me cope
with this situation.
[This message has been edited by taimedi (edited 23 January
2002).]
[This message has been edited by taimedi (edited 23 January
2002).]
[This message has been edited by taimedi (edited 23 January
2002).]
