I'm a disgrace to the female population...that's what alot of my
friends say. I'm rely alot on my bf. Everything is bf bf...bf comes
first before anything else. I can do alot of things willingly for
him. Like changing myself, listening to whatever he wants me to do.
They always say I'm an obedient gf lor. Hehe. Well...I personally
feel lah...I change myself for him, becos I love him, becos I love
him, whatever I do for him, I'm happy. I dun feel suppressed or
feel that I'm forcing myself to change. I feel happy when I do
things for him. I want to spend my time with him. I dun go cheong
with my friends cos he say gals shouldn't stay out late...so I dun
go...anyway I'm not interested either.
I'm the kind who can't live without him. Hehe. Call me a
weakling...cos I admit I am lah. I still have the thinking that a
woman's place is at home. Being able to make the perfect homemaker
is my greatest goal in life. I'm currently undertaking BSc...but
I'm trying to learn to cook, knit and iron my own clothes, wash the
dishes etc etc (cos I used to have maids to do these for me...then
when no maid, my mom will do it). My Bsc...hmm...I dun really care
if I get first class or not...I just wanna pass, go Australia with
my bf, wait for him to finish studies then get married.
But I must say, alot of woman out there are very career minded and
very 'big woman' lor...they really think that without guys, they
won't die...but alot of them no bf so they'll say these lah. Like
my sister...last time she also say she no guy won't die...she dun
think she wanna get married at all...all she want is money and
that's enough. Now leh...she's so troubled over her love life. Had
three bfs liao...and get so upset when she broke up with them. Who
says she no need guys.
I guess at different points in life, one will have different ideas
and thinkings. Maybe now I seems like I'll die without my bf, but
who knows if I break up with him (touch wood), I may also think
that no guy won't die.
Alot of gals (not saying ALL) dun really mean what they say. Like
my friend, she always say she dun foresee herself marrying her
current bf, and she dun give a damn about him, she dun care if he
two-timed her...but what happens? She still felt sad when her bf
two-timed her, she refused to break up with him...still say she
love him and dun wanna leave him and that she cannot live without
men. Hmmm...quite fickle minded as in now she can say she no need
guy, the next min she say she cannot live without them. It's like
guys make them love and hate at the same time. Love but scared of
being hurt by them. Hai...women can be a complex creatures at
times. 
