I have got 3 explanations in mind. not too sure if it applies to
you.. somehow related in a way, but can be independently by itself
:-
1) you feel that u r not loved.
2) you want to get some attention..
3) you have not got a purpose in life...
here's the details.
1) You feel that you are not loved because you find that ur parents
do not care abt you. Or maybe, they just don't show they concern
they have for you when you were younger. you don't feel the so
called nag to tell you to do this and to study. Or maybe you feel
that they are just nagging and nagging, till u got tired of it.
Basically you just don't feel you are that precious to someone
anymore.
But the thing is that the hopes and aspirations of that someone is
still there on you. just that as time goes by, the person may speak
less of it.. and hence you sort of put it at the back of your mind
and seldom bring it out to motivate yourself.. and the person still
loves as much if not more. just maybe was not expressed
openly.
2) You feel that in this world, no one cares abt you, or someone
important to you just did not bother about you. so you may want to
seek some attention. the more drastic the better, so that you will
know if the person truly cares or still cares for you.
But isn't there better ways to know if pple care for you? and there
are so many people out there who care for you. A very good example
are your parents. Even if u feel that one doesn't care, there's
always the other. I doubt that there are mothers who can give up on
their children with just a flick of a thought. Besides, we people
in AA here, do care for you.
3) You haven't know what you want. you have no goals. Hence you may
have the thoughts that, 'Heck, having me in this world doesn't make
much difference. The world still goes round without me.'
Why not start thinking of ways to let people in this world feel
that you I can't be without you? If you are a supervisor of a
factory, you can be a great supervisor such that ur workers will
feel, discouraged to work without you around with them. Or maybe as
a teacher, let your students missed your lessons when happen to
fall sick. I think Teecherz Crysania will be a great help on
that.
Who you are, makes a difference.
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