once again, i thanked all those who gave me their precious
advices. well, i'm not under 20...i'm 24 in fact. and the guy who
is facing the jail sentence is my 2nd boyfriend. the 1st guy, is
someone whom i love for 9 years till now, just that, we can no
longer be together because he can never realized whether he loves
me or not. btw, who do you guys think when a guy can actually
because of the hurt he brought to a guy and feel very bastard of
himself till he'll committed sucide? well, my 1st guy did that
recently...i don't knw if i'm the one he really loved cos he's
earning 4-5k per mth, got a flat, car, company, career and good
looking with many girls around him...yet, he confessed to me why he
resorted that cos he can feel my pain and yet he can't stop hurting
me one and times again...maybe he dont love me, isn't it? i don't
know...but after struggling for 9 years, this time round, i really
want to sever all ties with him...he's 26 and we actually been
together for 5 1/2 yrs before...as for the 2nd guy who's facing the
sentence, he's 24, same age as me...and please don't think he's a
incorrigible guy...not because he's someone i'd been with for 1 1/2
before, it's true he used to mix around with bad company before,
but that was when he was younger...who had never done wrong before,
and the first time, he was being framed up by others...and this
time round...he had to work 2 jobs everyday, morning till wee hours
in the night, because he got to support a family of 5...i know this
is not a good reason for him to sell pirated cds...but, what can he
do to earn at least 3k per month to support them...i can't and i
will not convince you guys to spare a thought for him, but i hope
you don't treat this matter as he's a bad person and "can't be
saved" anymore...who in this world would want to do something
against their will if not being left with no choice...you can't
expect him to leave his family alone...isn't it???
i don't know if i'll wait for him or not...cos, judging from his
status with the girl he claimed he had broke up with almost 2
months ago, what i got to know from his mum...they were togther all
along...yes, he may lied to me, maybe because he hope we can still
work things out...you can say he's selfish...but if you were to be
in his position...what will you do? i don't want to confirm did he
lie to me or not cos we can't discuss about all these at
all...
if only i did not leave him for the 1st guy in the first place,
maybe all these things won't happened at all...i'd always wish to
have a simple life with a loving boyfriend...till i know my 2nd guy
is not around with me now...then i know he's someone who can give
me all that...life is so weird...what i can say now is...he's
really a good person but faced with a "no choice" life...
