dear tynnie,
do not get disheartened so fast. the earlier stages, u r bound to
fall, bang things, bang ppl, kenna bang etc. Fall and pick urself
up. slowly u will be like me, fall til numb liao. keke..
initially i was quite gan jiong in my pracs, today fail, book tmr
lesson. den i realise i need time to recompose myself too. like wat
u say, got phobia. take time to calm urself, regain dat confidence.
no point being anxious and worry too much, cos when u gan jiong, u
get stiff, u worry unnecessarily, ur mind blocks out wat u shld be
doing and u do wrong things.
take some time to ease urself for the time being, but i suggest u
dun stall too long b4 u go for the next prac. cos at the early
stages, tis will lead to the worries of "Jialat ah, so long no go
prac liao. So long no touch the bike liao, dunno stil can rmrbr hw
to handle or not." Den.. u gan jiong spider again. kekeke....
:p
anyway, u r not me and i'm not u. Wat i'm sayin was wat happened 2
me. jus telling u abt my encounters.
good luck, all the best.
stay calm. 
