Hallo,
thank you for your advice and not using abusive language.
Yes, I am still together with my girlfriend.
Indeed, Claudia has become my fiance. I know quite well, if we
go again to South East Asia for the next holiday....it will happen
again, and I know I will have to accept it or lose my girl. Having
sex with the young thai was one of her best experiences she had and
of course she cannot simply forget it. Anyone knows that the sex
drive is a very strong one, and well, if you want something special
you might become a junkie. But she will not have sex with ANY young
asian. SHE will look for a suitable partner by her self and SHE
will chose a young strong dragon for sex...but again, ONLY for
sex.
Claudia knows that I went public with her Bangkok sex affair on
the internet and she did not oppose it. Instead, when I told
her that I want to go public to find out if other western guys had
also to share their girls with young asians, she was first
surprised but then she laughed at me. In the end she gave me a hug
and a kiss and said I could go public if it helps me. So I did and
published everything first in 2007 on www.personalthailand.com where there was an
article about western girls who pay for sex with young asians. A
lot of western wifes must accept that their husbands have sex with
young thai girls....but it is a total taboo if a white ladies takes
an athletic young thai to penetrate her. If someone of our
families or friends in Europe would find out that she had
spread her legs to get insaminated by a 20 year old thai boy in a
Bangkok hotel room, it will be an absolute catastrophal situation
for the both of us.
My girl loves sex and she is honest enough to me to say
that she prefers mostly young asian guys for sex. But it
is not only and all the time about sex. It is also about playing
around with guys, making them hot and disappointing them. For
instance, last summer a guy from Taiwan joined the same seminar at
the Uni in Berlin my girl was in. This guy was eagerly trying to
get a white girlfriend. Although Claudia told me she did not like
him much enough to consider to get bedded, she played with him and
made him hot. He started calling our home to date her (...and I
became jealous again). Finally she went out with him to a beer
garden on a hot summer day, only to introduce me as her
boyfriend. I could see how the guy was really desperate
after her and we all got a little bit drunk. At some point
Claudia went to the toilet, took of her panties from under her
summer skirt, went back to our table and gave him her panties
in front of me. Then she told him to piss of....she did not
want to see him anymore and I was really happy on the one
hand but on the other hand aslo jealous because of the
panties. The guy grabbed the panties and we never heared of
him again. I asked her why she did this and she told me she did not
consider to get bedded but on the other hand she found the idea
"amusing" (that is how she called it) that this guy
would sniff her panties and later masturbates thinking of
her.
In daily life we understand very good and we have seldom any
arguments, it is only the sexual side where she has maybe quite
unusual urges. So it would be hard to say good-bye only because of
sex-side of the coin. So I will go ahead with her and will have to
accept it.
I have put some pics from the internet on SGforums,
which come close to the situation which I had to go through in
Bangkok. They might symbolize my experience: Attractive white
girlfriend which looks quite similar to Claudia, a thai gigolo who
is sharpening his penis for white girls and so on....
The only thing what I did in my desperate situation in
Bangkok in 2007 (...in the nights when the thai gigolo bedded my
girl in the Golden Palace Hotel some floors away from my
room), were some sketches of HER and HIM. I draw this sketches
jealously in my diary. I imagined how she met him, how they went to
the room, how she paid him, how they got undressed....and how HE
was finally was on HER. Trying to cope with what happened,
this sketches and going public helped me a lot...you are so
jealous, you somehow must try to imagine what they did when you are
deliberately excluded....it is a real nightmare. Many times I
imagined and sketched the positions they made it....his thrusting,
her moaning, two young bodies sweating and fucking like wild
animals! (...sorry for my language). But strange enough, after it
happened, believe me, you do not disgust your girl but
you even want her more into your bed back (probably
instinctively trying to prove that YOU have the better skills them
HIM! But you know well, it is too late, you are the boyfriend but
for some holidays HE is the new boss in her bed. HE wants it, SHE
wants it! It is a personal thing...and an indivdual way
I cope with a situation that my girl was bedded from
a thai and to know:SHE had fun!
Rainer
