ok i m a virgin guy aged 23. i have no girlfriend n have never
been on a date before. coz during secondary school, i studied in a
all boys school n when i went to poly, i took up engineering
course, n most of the course mates where male. i m also not very
good looking n i m fat, thats why i have no confidence to go after
girls.
so today i decided i want to lose my virginity. i did not
masturbate for many days before in order to get myself into the
mood for sex. i decided to head to geylang. i brought along 2
condoms. i took a bus which took me down geylang road. i been
feeling nervous n uneasy the whole time on the bus. i was thinking
should i, or should i not? anyway i wasn't familiar with geylang
but i intend to alight around the area where there r many hotels
along the lorongs, or rather the more crowded part of
geylang.
but while in the bus, i was feeling really nervous. i was thinking
would i catch some disease or get AIDs? coz i remember my bio
teacher in sec school used to tell my class that condoms cant 100%
prevent aids, coz some condoms might have microscopic holes whereby
the aids virus can still pass through. i was also scared that i
will be too nervous when i m with the prostitute, that i cant erect
n perform. i was also scared of getting cheated by the pimp or
getting drugged n robbed by the prostitute.
all these thoughts came into my head n finally i decided i will not
go n find prostitute. so i did not alight n the bus headed to
lavender/jalan besar area. i alighted there n went to a coffeeshop
n order a can of green tea to calm myself down. i felt disappointed
that i did not get what i wanted today, but at the same time i felt
glad coz i didnt succumb to the dark side.
i took a cab home n went to watch some porn n masturbate. then now
i m still thinking should i pluck up my courage n make a trip to
geylang again tomorrow? or should i just say no to casual
sex?
anyway experts here, can condoms prevent aids? and if i were to go
to geylang, where can i find prostitutes that r clean, aka free of
aids or VD?
or do u think i should just erase thought of find prostitutes out
of my mind?
