Being a couple together, it is always a good practise to discuss
about sexual activities. It helps to know and understand each other
better, in terms of sexual needs and what each like and
dislike.
With regards to u going down on her, well, I would suggest u brave
up and give it a try. Most likely u will grow to like it, esp. when
she is doing it to u. Try 69 position lor, at least it will take ur
mind away from that disguisting feeling u have. Juz a word of
caution, dun try it when her period is nearby. When it's nearby,
the scent tends to get heavier and the fluid oso thicker (opposite
of watery).
If u seriously dun wanna force her, tell her so frankly when both
of u are in "normal" mode, not when either of u are aroused. Hear
how she feels about it, and then both of u decide what is the
course of actions both of u are going to take. Be open and frank in
the discussion, there is no need to hide if both of u truly love
each other. Afterall, u all have been through everything
liaoz...wat's there to hide.