Hmmm....yeah maybe u were unable to separate it well.
Apologetics should onli help u to understand the doctrines better,
to better understand the context of the doctrines, to clear up any
misunderstandings due to insufficent theological knowledge....but
it should never be used to measure how well a person knows God. Cos
those are head and literal knowledge.....being close to God is
another issue....
No worries bro, just keep praying, just remember God always loves
you.
