MooKu's Diary

last SG · 2003-11-08T21:45:51+00:00

I will soon become a struggling musician.

MooKu SG

*sniff sniff* Don't know why today just feel so depressed. Crying or Very sad

I'm so stressed, every minute I'm thinking of the 'A' levels. Confused

Last night, I messaged two friends to ask a question on a particular subject. Till now they haven't replied yet. Hello, please don't tell me "oh, I switched off my phone for the past few days because I've been studying!" Like the two of you will... Rolling Eyes Luckily I changed my mind after SMS-ing them and called somebody instead. Phew.

When people get stressed, as in, in such a situation when the 'A's are coming, is it normally like this? I felt so hurt, like they don't care, or they care more about themselves [I have to study, no time to bother about your question.]? Or at least if you don't know the answer to my question, reply since it was clearly directed at YOU with your name. Rolling Eyes

That brings us to the question of SMS etiquette. The two friends mentioned above.. aren't the only two who don't reply at times. Sometimes, when SMSes are sent to some people, they don't reply at all! Like say, it's a question: What time does class start tomorrow? And if the receiver doesn't know the answer, he'll just ignore it. Alright who's guilty of that?! Twisted Evil I think we should just reply lah ok. Imagine the sender waiting and waiting... in vain.

Sigh.

MooKu SG

Today's mood:

skeujin SG

Wink

Parka SG

When I miss sms, which I normally do because my phone is always silent, I will reply with a "sorry it took so long"

Relax...

MooKu SG

I don't believe they won't switch on/look at their phones from last night till now.. Confused sigh it's okay... I'll just know who to seek help from the next time I need it.

jOhO SG

mooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooku

are u upset again?

haiz.. dun worree it'll be over soon ok? and then u can let ur hair down! Mr. Green

as for friends not replying.. well strong friendships take forever to build, and anyway not replying an sms doesn't have to mean they don't care. i guess as u said, maybe it's courtesy.

dun fret ok, whoever that disregards u as a friend will probably die a horrible death!

MooKu SG

my hair never tie leh. Mr. Green

wah then alot of people will die a horrible death you know Twisted Evil

thanks jOhO.. feeling better already Smile

jOhO SG

well at least u're doing the coffin industry a favour!

dun think too much ok? everyone's probably all stresssing, then after exams over, u'll all forget all the crap that u were in and start having fun. Wink

MooKu SG

lol okay! that's an interesting way of looking at it. Mr. Green i guess for now I should change my perception of the things that happen to cheer myself up hehe. Smile

MooKu SG

Dear Diary,

Today has been a boring day. Surprised I spent the entire day reading, except for an interval during which I did a little gardening, pruned the plants and watered them.

I did some thinking during the past few days. Maybe I won't attend university. I think I'll learn piano and get myself a diploma in it, and then head for a school where I can get my degree in music. Career opportunities? Work in arts organizations, piano teacher, lecturer if I manage to get my degreeS. Smile

Somebody told me "It's better to do music if you're really interested in it, rather than spend time doing something I don't like, and wasting precious time by not faring well."

I'm not sure if it's the right decision, but it may be time for me to be firm and make my choice in life. I've never dared to venture out into the wild, and I really feel like trying now.

I figured if it doesn't work out in the end, I can always study and get a diploma... and then a degree.. working from bottom to top. After all, it's never too late for anything?

Right now, my 'A's will come first.. I'll just try my best and see how it turns out... Neutral

MooKu SG

Dear Diary,

Surprised *ahhhhhh-choooo!!!!!!*

I am down with a very bad cold today. I feel so weak. I have no strength to hold my pen and write! But I want to do some case studies... Neutral

Nevermind maybe I'll read my literature books.

But I wanna go back to school and submit my essays!!! Mad

*sniff sniff*

MooKu SG

Dear Dairy,

School was productive today, given that I managed to finish up 3 case studies with 10 minutes' worth of help from my tutor. But seeing the progress of my classmates, I realized I am lagging behind alot.

I know I know I should work alot harder. I've tried too. But, I don't know. It doesn't work. Sometimes I'm motivated to.. but most of the time not. Why? Is it because I lack a fixed direction in life? I remember back in primary school, there was a year I told myself after seeing friends collect prizes at the prize-giving ceremony, that the next year I must be one of those people. And I did manage to come in 2nd in standard for Chinese that next year. But whyyy. I am still as competitive as ever, but where has my motivation and determination gone? Crying or Very sad

I know I'm not going to make it this time for the 'A's. It's not being pessimistic but rather realistic. And I know I deserve it too. Right now I don't wish for anything else, but only not to freak out during the exams and run away from it. I guess maybe one of the most important things to me now is to learn self-control - how to keep my cool during stressful situations and work my way out of it.

Today I came home from school, hoping to see the topic I started this morning, on kindness, filled with nice replies. Or just many many views. To my horror, none were relevant. Crying or Very sad Doesn't anyone care anymore?

Why is it that the people I put my faith in always seem to let me down? Where have I gone wrong? What's wrong with me? And what's wrong with the world?

MooKu SG

Dear Diary,

My Premium Account has been activated! Yay! Laughing

Was torn between the picture of the indian man and my own photo... but in the end I chose my own photo

Should I put the cow in my signature? Or should the smiley of the harpist stay?

Sigh mommy's not cooking again tonight. I seriously think one of these days I should go on a detox diet after stuffing my face with so much junk food lately.. Curry puffs, spring rolls, chocolate, pasta, potato chips, prunes.. Embarassed I feel so.. contaminated.

Today's Sunday Times had this article on pills, and there was this section where a lady described her experience taking this pill that would help her to lose weight, prescribed by the doctor. Ewch. She said there was actually OIL coming out of her NOSE. How disgusting can things get. Rolling Eyes I swear I'll never take that pill, even if my weight hits 100kg. Confused

bismarck SG

mooku...calm down...
aiyah sms...
my class rep got this weird reply attitude...
if i ask him...tmr got this lesson?

he replies with " Ya." 3 characters....

and usually he replies within 20mins if he is replying otherwise he wont reply.
once i asked this impt Q...never reply...the next day..see me still had the cheek to mention abt it and say paiseh ah...i lazy reply.

kns...if i get into trouble because of it..i will whack u...

MooKu SG

yeah! some people's replies are like, so cold. at least yours has a full stop. My class rep, coincidentally a little similar, simply replies either "ya" or "no".

next time just sms more than one person if it's something really important lor.. i do that nowadays.. Wink unless i'm sms-ing someone i know will sure reply. Mr. Green

bismarck SG

sian..hungry liaoz...
aiyah when i mass sms some ppl like ask them when their bday or some simple questions.
my best record is 80% replied...the rest just ignored...
kns..

oh well...dun want later reply back end up fighting with those arrogant ones who finally decides to reply...

and yes i do have some ppl who say sorry when they reply late.
and 1 friend of mind always ask so many questions in 1 sms. so damn invasive. like u tell him i go shopping. he will ask, where u go,what time,with who, what u buy, how much, how u get there?

so sometimes i just reply yes no yes no to his msg. like this
1.no
2. yes
3.no
4.no
5.yes
6.yes
then he replies with " huh waht yes no yes no?" go figure it out yrself

many times, when i sms him a Q,he dun reply. he calls back when i am home. then he asks stupid questions like " huh,,,what u mean ? what u want to buy a lcd?"

then i just say,i want to buy a lcd lah.

he says " orh.u want to buy a lcd"

Shocked Rolling Eyes somebody shoot me!

MooKu SG

mass smsing never really works.. i guess because most of the time people will be like "i see the response of other pple first then i sms back". nowadays when i mass sms, i try my best to make it sound like i only smsed one person Laughing like u know, "hi!!! hey you wanna go here and there later?"

MooKu SG

Dear Dairy, erm, Diary,

Suddenly it struck me that maybe I need an extra person in my life.

Suddenly it came into my mind how nice it'd be if there was someone who'd give me a nice big hug when I'm stressed or simply having mood swings.

Suddenly I realized I have wasted 4 years on someone who probably doesn't want to remember his past anymore.

Suddenly... my life feels empty.

I used to think life was wonderful as a single female, without having a burden to feel obliged to say "good morning dear" or "good night darling" to. My life was the way I wanted it to be. If I didn't feel like leaving the house, I didn't have to do so. If I wanted to go shopping, I could always find friends, or if they didn't have the time, go alone!

I wonder. How will life be different if an extra person came in? Of course my desire for one now [hahahahahaha] doesn't mean I'm going to start LOOKING for one. Or asking for one. It all depends on fate... chemistry... chance... luck...

I always tell myself I will never get into a relationship unless I'm seriously serious about it, and serious about making it long term.. and that stays.

Sigh! When will another Mr Right come along........ Neutral

P.S. Hey people, you know, you can actually post comments to my entries leh. Mr. Green

skeujin SG

been in n still r in yr shoes... knw how shitty it feels we u really nid to get a hug but..... Sad