hey brother, i understand how u feel. i got dumped twice before
too.
the first one was a change of heart, i feel so betrayed. at least,
i could have a feeling to focus on, thats hatred. but, the second
one was all of a sudden like urs. no warning or what, just dumped
me like that. he was like my world then, my like revolved around
him. and suddenly, he just wrote me a letter and that's it, refused
to take my calls.
i was wondering what i did wrong. y does he has to do this to me?
what am i not good at? i want a chance to change, to do anything
for him, but, he just disappeared in my life. leaving me to rot
alone.
those were the most difficult times of my life. the loneliness that
seeps in every night, the busy street filled with loving couples
are all too painful for me to see. but, i got a life to carry
on.
at first, i pretend to be strong. i want to be able to carry on
living as if nothing has happened, and even living better than what
i was like than i was with him. only one person knew how weak i
was.
i hate to admit it, but, the breakup with the second guy turn me
into a wild girl who loves having fun a lot. and i enjoy (after the
sorrow times) myself with my friends who gave lotsa support for
me.
maybe because i see myself as nothing to lose, i mean what was most
important to me then had already gone, what else does it
matter?
i throw away all the norms, all the proper stuff and start doing
things i like. i enjoy doing it for the fun of it, which people
will not do because its not the norms.... but who cares, i like it
that way.
and its was thru this, i start to build back what i had lost after
the breakup - my self-confidence, my self-esteem.
i hope to inspire u to pick up urself again. this is a true story
about myself, not spinned to help u, but, told to help u realise
there's more to life than a person who doesn't appreciate u.
