Hi En' I finally got the time to read and analyze the
Reading.
ps. I took a hiatus to clear my mind but unfortunately I started
work and mind never cleared up after that. Principles are always
changing and evolving learning on a day to day basis.
Current Situation
I'm graduating from school pretty soon and wondering about how I
would be able to find a spouse in the future so I feel that the
feeling of confusion is spot on. I was even thinking a few days
back to a quote that I remember reading, 'We are a generation of
apathetic individuals'. I also have feelings of slight depression,
due to not wanting to graduate.
Crossing Card
I'm not sure what to make of this. I think the closest feeling I
have of being bounded would probably be related to the fact that
I'm the eldest son so I feel the need to perform well in the
upcoming exams to be able to secure a good university
placing.
Thoughts/Events Crowning
Perhaps one of the dreams/fantasies I would be having is a body
like Ronaldo so.. hahaha! Another one that is more likely would be
trying to achieve a perfect GPA so I guess it is accurate.
Foundation
Missed opportunity?! Where?! Oh no! I agree with the
procrastinating part though and if I were more grateful I guess I
would be feeling less depressed.
Past
Sometimes I do feel that I do not understand myself or are not
being honest to myself, running away from problems which are mostly
related to relationships and goals.
I stopped till here before trying to clear my mind.
Future
I am going to graduate from poly but I don't see that as an
achievement but rather an expectation. The people around me are
excited though. I am currently involved in a major company project
so I'm working to make progress on it.
Allies
I have always been an independant person but maybe lately I have
been more humble and asked for the opinions of others. Sometimes
I'm not sure of what I want like in the past so I have to think and
mull over the matter a few days to sort it out straight.
Environment
I never had that feeling of someone watching over me but I'm sure I
would feel grateful and loved if it did happen.
Hopes & Fears
I do know my limits well and rarely try to stretch and push them. I
end up being lazy sometimes and that isn't good. I always try to
wawtch my diet and exercise and sleep but usually it isn't
sufficient.
Outcome
I know what I want and am working hard towards it but it seems as
though the effort is not paying off well. There was a woman for a
brief period of time but I might have scared her off with my
advances haha.
