This is an emotional problem, I hope the mod won't transfer my
post elsewhere because Aunt Agony is best place for me to channel
my discussion. I also hope everybody here will give their postive
feedback and not flame or post irrelevant thing.
I am in my 30s, have been to this big church for 4 years,
only about a year ago I started getting active in its young adult
activities. I sometimes feel very frustrated because I feel lonely
and disconnected, unable to blend in this big church. As I said
only last year, I was able to get involve in the committee
activities of the young adult movement at this church.
But to my frustrations, they only restricted my contributions to
my talents which is finance because I am an accountant by practice.
When I am in their committee, I want to discuss about video,
programs, publicity for young adult activities, nobody wants to
listen to me. There is some form of politics and the young adult
leadership comes from this group of cell group leaders who tend to
support each other. Furthermore, this church is suffering from its
"silo" mentality because the church is so big that the people tend
to mix in their own groups. So when we form committees, sometimes I
just want to be friendly to say hi or what do they do for a living,
instead I am sometimes ignored because they are so clickish and
only mix with their own kind. One day I asked one of the committee
members whether I can join in his idea of organising a movie outing
for the young adults. He didn't answer me, instead recruited those
people who are from his own cell group (cronysm). So I just made a
slight complain to one of the church workers. After that I was
obstracized by the whole young adult committee.
It is really frustrating. Sometimes I read the bible, it tells
me to be an overcomer and preservere. At the same time, a friend of
mine has invited me to his smaller church. Everybody there seem to
know each other and they are so well connected. They welcomed me
and I felt so accepted. On the other hand at this big church, I go
to church alone, so lonely, when I run into a committee member, he
or she don't even bother to say hi. I feel like leaving? What
should I do? Should I join the smaller church? Or take up the
challenge and stay at this bigger church?
