Thats why i said its the Message to me that is important and i
try to understand it. The "What would Jesus Do" concept.
I already acknowledge my weakness in my faith. maybe i am
stubborn or just refusing to let go of the material things and
wants that surrounds. The earthly gratifications. Pleasures of the
flesh and other things.
So the only thing i can do , is try to find the answers myself,
go church, use the gift God gave me and that is my brain to absorb
and to understand why how. Feel what its like to be helping the
poor, teaching music and choir for free. Giving. Forgiving. And to
discuss and challenge myself myself in places like this. Or else i
may just be another empty Christian shell by label and not by
faith and Jesus's teachings.
Sounds like you need a good foundation to your faith in
God. According to christianity the foundation is
important.