Whatever you choose, why not try both Protestant and Catholic
church and see which one you like better.
Take it easy. Faith needs time to build, one step at a time. Get
rid of the bigger sins first and repent, the smaller ones are most
likely to be a daily struggle but try to remain faithful. I hope
you will find God a living God in your life. Try to love God,
literally too. May God give you the kind of peace that is
overpowering(if not ask it) and give you His blessings.
When God gives you his overpowering peace, do not have any
attachment to sins, otherwise the peace would be taken away again.
God is a gentle and kind God He doesn't require you to be perfect
to receive His blessings but you can't have any attachment to
sins.
Many things I want to write but I hope you find the wisdom as
you go along the way.
Greetings from Jakarta,
Renaldi
I suggest a reading of patristics or writings of the Church
fathers to examine their thoughts on Christian issues. A few of
them like St Ignatius below (who was ordained by Peter and a
disciple of John) were students of the Apostles.
Let no man do anything connected with the Church without the
bishop. Let that be deemed a proper Eucharist, which is
[administered] either by the bishop, or by one to whom he has
entrusted it. Wherever the bishop shall appear, there let the
multitude also be; by the bishop, or by one to whom he has
entrusted it. Wherever the bishop shall appear, there let the
multitude also be; even as, wherever Jesus Christ is, there is the
Catholic Church." Ignatius of Antioch, Epistle to the Smyrneans,
8:2 (c. A.D. 110).
The history of christianity is very important to Christians and
more so if you are Catholic since the faith of the fathers (which
pays testimony to sacred Tradition) together with Scripture is
the rule of faith.