laoda,
no joking here... just ask God and the Holy Spirit will reveal
things to you... I know, I talk from experience... God has taught
me so much about Him and has given me such a revelation that I
cannot contain my joy... He will do the same for you. God and the
Holy Spirit are the best teachers, not man.
I know the Love of God... so strong that I was crying for a whole
day the other week... just to know a God who loves me so much who
cares about the little minute details of my life... I will pray
also that God will reveal things to you as you read the
word..
Think of it this way, when I say I read the bible everyday... and
more than once... there is a reason, it may be hard at first... but
it will become part of your life...and the reason is that your
spiritual man has to be fed just like your physical man.. if you
don't eat, you will eventually starve and die, same thing for your
spiritual man, in order for your spiritual man to grow, you have to
"eat" from the word of God to grow strong in your faith...