36. Resolved, never to speak evil of any, except I have some
particular good call for it. Dec. 19, 1722.
37. Resolved, to inquire every night, as I am going to bed, wherein
I have been negligent, what sin I have committed, and wherein I
have denied myself: also at the end of every week, month and year.
Dec.22 and 26, 1722.
38. Resolved, never to speak anything that is ridiculous, sportive,
or matter of laughter on the Lord's day. Sabbath evening, Dec. 23,
1722.
39. Resolved, never to do anything that I so much question the
lawfulness of, as that I intend, at the same time, to consider and
examine afterwards, whether it be lawful or no; except I as much
question the lawfulness of the omission.
40. Resolved, to inquire every night, before I go to bed, whether I
have acted in the best way I possibly could, with respect to eating
and drinking. Jan. 7, 1723.
41. Resolved, to ask myself at the end of every day, week, month
and year, wherein I could possibly in any respect have done better.
Jan. 11, 1723.
42. Resolved, frequently to renew the dedication of myself to God,
which was made at my baptism; which I solemnly renewed, when I was
received into the communion of the church; and which I have
solemnly re-made this twelfth day of January, 1722-23.
43. Resolved, never henceforward, till I die, to act as if I were
any way my own, but entirely and altogether God's, agreeable to
what is to be found in Saturday, January 12. Jan.12, 1723.
44- Resolved, that no other end but religion, shall have any
influence at all on any of my actions; and that no action shall be,
in the least circumstance, any otherwise than the religious end
will carry it. Jan.12, 1723.
45. Resolved, never to allow any pleasure or grief, joy or sorrow,
nor any affection at all, nor any degree of affection, nor any
circumstance relating to it, but what helps religion. Jan.12 and
13.1723.
46. Resolved, never to allow the least measure of any fretting
uneasiness at my father or mother. Resolved to suffer no effects of
it, so much as in the least alteration of speech, or motion of my
eve: and to be especially careful of it, with respect to any of our
family.
47. Resolved, to endeavor to my utmost to deny whatever is not most
agreeable to a good, and universally sweet and benevolent, quiet,
peaceable, contented, easy, compassionate, generous, humble, meek,
modest, submissive, obliging, diligent and industrious, charitable,
even, patient, moderate, forgiving, sincere temper; and to do at
all times what such a temper would lead me to. Examine strictly
every week, whether I have done so. Sabbath morning. May
5,1723.
48. Resolved, constantly, with the utmost niceness and diligence,
and the strictest scrutiny, to be looking into the state of my
soul, that I may know whether I have truly an interest in Christ or
no; that when I come to die, I may not have any negligence
respecting this to repent of. May 26, 1723.
49. Resolved, that this never shall be, if I can help it.
50. Resolved, I will act so as I think I shall judge would have
been best, and most prudent, when I come into the future world.
July 5, 1723.
51. Resolved, that I will act so, in every respect, as I think I
shall wish I had done, if I should at last be damned. July 8,
1723.
52. I frequently hear persons in old age say how they would live,
if they were to live their lives over again: Resolved, that I will
live just so as I can think I shall wish I had done, supposing I
live to old age. July 8, 1723.
53. Resolved, to improve every opportunity, when I am in the best
and happiest frame of mind, to cast and venture my soul on the Lord
Jesus Christ, to trust and confide in him, and consecrate myself
wholly to him; that from this I may have assurance of my safety,
knowing that I confide in my Redeemer. July 8, 1723.
54. Whenever I hear anything spoken in conversation of any person,
if I think it would be praiseworthy in me, Resolved to endeavor to
imitate it. July 8, 1723.
55. Resolved, to endeavor to my utmost to act as I can think I
should do, if I had already seen the happiness of heaven, and hell
torments. July 8, 1723.
56. Resolved, never to give over, nor in the least to slacken my
fight with my corruptions, however unsuccessful I may be.
57. Resolved, when I fear misfortunes and adversities, to examine
whether ~ have done my duty, and resolve to do it; and let it be
just as providence orders it, I will as far as I can, be concerned
about nothing but my duty and my sin. June 9, and July 13
1723.
58. Resolved, not only to refrain from an air of dislike,
fretfulness, and anger in conversation, but to exhibit an air of
love, cheerfulness and benignity. May27, and July 13, 1723.
59. Resolved, when I am most conscious of provocations to ill
nature and anger, that I will strive most to feel and act
good-naturedly; yea, at such times, to manifest good nature, though
I think that in other respects it would be disadvantageous, and so
as would be imprudent at other times. May 12, July ii, and July
13.
60. Resolved, whenever my feelings begin to appear in the least out
of order, when I am conscious of the least uneasiness within, or
the least irregularity without, I will then subject myself to the
strictest examination. July 4, and 13, 1723.
61. Resolved, that I will not give way to that listlessness which I
find unbends and relaxes my mind from being fully and fixedly set
on religion, whatever excuse I may have for it-that what my
listlessness inclines me to do, is best to be done, etc. May 21,
and July 13, 1723.
62. Resolved, never to do anything but duty; and then according to
Eph. 6:6-8, do it willingly and cheerfully as unto the Lord, and
not to man; "knowing that whatever good thing any man doth, the
same shall he receive of the Lord." June 25 and July 13,
1723.
63. On the supposition, that there never was to be but one
individual in the world, at any one time, who was properly a
complete Christian, in all respects of a right stamp, having
Christianity always shining in its true luster, and appearing
excellent and lovely, from whatever part and under whatever
character viewed: Resolved, to act just as I would do, if I strove
with all my might to be that one, who should live in my time.
Jan.14' and July '3' 1723.
64. Resolved, when I find those "groanings which cannot be uttered"
(Rom. 8:26), of which the Apostle speaks, and those "breakings of
soul for the longing it hath," of which the Psalmist speaks, Psalm
119:20, that I will promote them to the utmost of my power, and
that I will not be wear', of earnestly endeavoring to vent my
desires, nor of the repetitions of such earnestness. July 23, and
August 10, 1723.
65. Resolved, very much to exercise myself in this all my life
long, viz. with the greatest openness I am capable of, to declare
my ways to God, and lay open my soul to him: all my sins,
temptations, difficulties, sorrows, fears, hopes, desires, and
every thing, and every circumstance; according to Dr. Manton's 27th
Sermon on Psalm 119. July 26, and Aug.10 1723.
66. Resolved, that I will endeavor always to keep a benign aspect,
and air of acting and speaking in all places, and in all companies,
except it should so happen that duty requires otherwise.
67. Resolved, after afflictions, to inquire, what I am the better
for them, what good I have got by them, and what I might have got
by them.
68. Resolved, to confess frankly to myself all that which I find in
myself, either infirmity or sin; and, if it be what concerns
religion, also to confess the whole case to God, and implore needed
help. July 23, and August 10, 1723.
69. Resolved, always to do that, which I shall wish I had done when
I see others do it. Aug. 11, 1723.
70. Let there be something of benevolence, in all that I speak.
Aug. 17, 1723