sometimes the pressure is not overt.. which makes it even worse
because you cannot address it.. yet it is there, unspoken...
an objection... could be said to be a slight form of
pressure...
i've ignored them for the most of my life.. sometimes, i capitulate
and i feel like hammered crap about it...
worst of all, some folks know.. and use it to get their
way...
psychologically, everyone's different... a shrink once called this
a guilt complex... i know i have one...
it gets to this stage where the scars of the past never heal even
when i have let them go... i think for myself, i will be all
right.. for others around me, like my sister, i'm afraid... she
seems to be strong, but i know inside her, she's probably even more
messed up than me coz she's soft...
i think about things like that.. how many out there are being
scarred by their folks, being driven... when they could get there
by themselves in their time
you're lucky... count yourself blessed 
