Hi all, I was PES B and I am undergoing my BMT now.
I am doing enchanced leadership BMT and I really cannot take it.
After enduring 7 weeks of BMT, I finally cannot take the training
and become very depressed. Hence, I tried to use cut and kill
myself. I was admitted to Institute of Mental Health (IMH) and was
OOT from then on. The tekong MO also arranged for me to go to SAF
ward psychiatrist specialist.
I had a few questions regarding my situations right now as
followed:
1. Do you think it is likely that I can get a down PES?
2. If I can get a down PES, what PES do you think I will get and
will it be permanent or temporary?
3. What vocation will I most likely be assigned to?
4. Do I need to recourse my BMT? If yes, will I recourse
enchanced leadership BMT course again or will I get other types of
BMT? Also, do you know when will be the likely time for me to
recourse my BMT? (eg, 3 months later, 6 months later, before I
ORD)
I also have a few concerns right now. I am a scholarship holder
and got a quite competitive course in NUS. Also, I am intending to
go overseas such as US or UK for university. Thus, I have the
following concerns:
1. What will be written in the testimonial after I completed two
years of NS?
2. Will they reflect my depression, suicide attempt and
admittion to IMH in my testimonial? I know superficial illness such
as flu will not be reflected. However, given the severity of my
incident, will they reflect?
3. Does university and employers in future look at my NS
testimonial? How important is it for my future career?
4. When I go to see SAF phychiatrist, should I request for him
to downgrade my PES? I am thinking that if I behave normally in
front of the doctor and insist I am ok and I do not need a down
PES, he will think I am ok and will not reflect this incident in my
testimonial or to other people.
However, if the case is that he will reflect about this incident
in my testimonial regardless of whether I down PES or not, I would
rather insist the doctor to down my PES and lead an easier life in
this 2 years.
Thanks a lot to people who can help me. It will be better for
people who have already completed NS to answer me because they
would have received their testimonial and will know what it
comprises of. I am really concerned about my scholarship. I am
scared if the scholarship discovered this incident, they will
nullify my scholar.
Thanks once more for helping me out!
1. depending on MO
2. If down sure will be C but which depending on how severe your
depression.
3. Vocation by luck.
4. Of cos u need to recourse BMT but B or C BMT depending on
your pes status.
As for the testimonial, I think all illness is not reflected
inside there but will it affect your scholarship I cannot be too
sure, I wouldn't be surprise if it does. Always think before you do
something stupid, suicide is the most stupid thing, especially in
NS. Btw what scholarship u got anyway, if SAF, I think it's over
for you for sure.