thanks guys, i talked to my PC and called SAF hotline today and
seen a MO. Feels better now.
The SAF counsellor allow me to keep my identity unknown.
Basically told him all my problem..and ask if i need seek MO
attention.
The MO refer me to see a psychiatrist which i think is not
needed. All i need is an excuse firearms by him to prevent me frm
doing duty. Yeah..prevent me from doing duty..not because i want
"chao keng" or what. Is that i am doing security and i dont want
affect ppl around me/myself/ops coz i really cant concentrate on my
duty. the duty is already fuckup . I scared i cant take it and do
something stupid.
Of course my mind is still clear of should/shouldnot when
handling firearms.
Good to know that u seeked help from saf hotline n MO.
Just go see the MMI psychiatrist and see how. Tell him ur
problems.