Hi there
I've recently been posted to a new unit as a platoon medic fresh
from the new medic course. I can't say the job is tough neither is
it very chiong sua cause cbt medics in my unit generally stay at
the medical centre unless there are out field etc. Basically we're
still platoon medic that chiong sua but do not stay with the
platoon. Both service medic and combat medic in my unit is stay
in.
Thing is, i only have like a year left before i ORD cause i
OOC'ed from OCS before, thus the late posting to a unit. Like for
the whole year, i've never had a proper unit that i belonged
to.
Anyways, i was hoping you guys could give me some input
regarding my problem. Basically i OOC'ed from OCS because i was
having depression and anxiety problem. During my short stay as an
OCT, i really couldn't take the environment and stress and it made
me become an insomniac as well as to be very edgy as a person which
i normally am not. In the day, my heartbeat would be racing even
though im not exercising etc. I can feel that something is not
right with my mental health but i did not pursue the matter as in
the end i OOC'ed due to my physical problem with my lower limb plus
my friend said that if i OOC'ed due to mental health, i may
jeopardize my future. Thing is, i didn't consult anyone regarding
that anxiety problem cause when i ooc'ed and got posted as a
temporary staff somewhere else, the anxiety problem went away.
Maybe some readers may find that i'm tyring to chao keng but i
guess its up to u to decide. I did go through BMT and i did go
through the medic course like how a normal NSF would do it without
problems. But i just didn't understand that state of mind that i
had during my stay in OCS and the current one i'm having.
When i got posted to my new unit as the combat medic, my anxiety
problem arose again and im having trouble sleeping. i'm losing my
appetite and all i keep thinkin about is to get out cause something
shit is gonna happen. My heartbeat is racing all day and there is
nothing i can do to calm it down. Every now and then i'll look at
the clock and basically do all kinds of things to keep myself
occupied but i'll still end up feeling this doom coming over me or
somthin. its a weird feeling that i can't explain other than that i
feel overly anxious like i'm gonna die or something (i dont mean to
sound exxagerating but at times i do feel this way. Espeically
before i sleep). I did call the SAF counselling hotline and all
they said was to talk to the MO and see where it goes from
there.
Thing is, i still want to be a combat medic. But something about
my unit is driving me nuts and all i wanna do is just to get out.
Is there anyway i can like request to get posted out to another
camp? or even revocationed if i have to cause right now all i can
think about is just to get out of the camp. I've spoken to some of
my friends and they did say i may be suffering from anxiety problem
which is supposedly down-pes-able but thats not what i want. All i
want is to be posted out somewhere else. I've gone through normal
BMT and the Medic course as well as taking a temporary staff job at
ocs without problems but why now again? the feeling is just really
driving me down. As embarassing as this may sound, sometimes i'm
really at my wits end and i end up tearing while tryin to
sleep.
so yeah, if you guys have experience or inputs regarding what i
should do, please do leave a comment. I'd really appreciate it.
Hi Shaun g101,
As the counsellor from the counselling hotline has suggested,
the first step is for you to seek help from your camp's MO. Only
after he has judged that your situation is serious enough, then
will he direct you to a SAF psychiatrist.
If you are to keep everything to yourself, your situation may
worsen and you may start to have suicidal thoughts.
Cheers.