Depression: See Doctor to Take Medicine?

Holycrap9991 SG

hi guys. ive been feeling even more depressed than ever when i got into army. before i army, i've already got few symptomps of depression. i get pissed off easily. i feel like doing something not right to release my stress.. also i will imagine things like my close and loved one got into accident and die or smth. for example, like my younger sis says she's gg out and i will think that something bad to her. i will think of that frequently and that lead me to tear everynight for no reason. then after i enlist into army it got worse.. everynight i cant stop thinking. i didnt know what to do. im the army for 4months alr. training wise was ok. i cant cope with the stress. i dare not tell anyone about it. im too embarassed and afraid they will think im crazy.. what to do.. am i having depression..

dkcx SG

Either seek out a psychiatrist on your own or go see the MO and they will likely sent you to 1. All medical records are confidential so they won't be shared with others.

Depression is not something to play around with and serious case of depression will cause the sufferer to have sucidal tendencies etc which endangers your life

Holycrap9991 SG

but if i were to visit the MO, my PC and Commanders will ask me bout it and im afraid to let them. Cos i know the news will surely spread around or something. then ppl surely say i geng. surely i will get pissed off and im afraid i beat them up or smth and i will have the mindset of beating the person up.. im also afraid that one day i will use smth to hit any of my camp mate when they piss me off. is it anxiety order? yea, i have suicidal thoughts but the thought of my family and loved ones stopped me but im afraid that one day i cant take it and go crazy then i commit suicide.. btw, thanks for the reply dkcx.. i feel so stress and empty now. i dunno what to do..

kopiosatu SG

go see a psychiatrist for a professional analysis of your self proclaimed depression.

fudgester SG

Just tell one commander whom you trust that you want to visit the MO regarding this. Surely there has to be one whom you can confide in.

Then visit the MO, who may refer you to a proper psychiatrist for further evaluation.

If your colleagues ask, just come up with some bullcrap about having some heart problems. That's true enough in a way.

gd4u SG

IF u do not want to seek help in camp, please seek help outside.

Anyway, I am not sure if this will work for you. Just tell your commanders that u wana go see MO for probably a fever or headache or something. But go in and tell the MO your problems.

dkcx SG

Don't worry about that. If you are really having depression, its more important to get it diagnose and medication/therapy be applied. Depression requires proper diagostics and not something you say you have means you have it. If it has been medically diagnosed with depression, noone can say you are kenging.

The longer you drag the issue, the more severe your problem might be and the harder it would be to cure it.

Just pluck up some courage and take the 1st step to get your problem diagnosed by a psychiatrist. With treatment, conditions might improve, you will feel less stress and alot of problems you current might be facing might be less of an issue later on. Depression will cloud your judgement.

How to help yourself

1) Get yourself diagnosed and accept the result of the diagnosis.

2) Set small realistic goals for yourself to get back to your usual routine

3) Take some time out whenever you can to do something you enjoy to let yourself relax

4) Hold off big decision making for now since your outlook of things are not clear

5) Avoid alcohol as it could lead to abuse of it and interact with medications when you are on them

6) Some exercise will help fight mild-moderate depression

7) Share and talk about things that bothers you, keeping them bottled up will make you feel worse

8) Maintain good physical health as that is linked to your mental wellbeing

9) Don't despair or giveup. There are many people who suffered depression and got over it before so you can also get over it.

Holycrap9991 SG

sigh. feel so lost. didnt tell anyone about it. my parents have many problems as i overheard their conversation and i didnt want to talk to them about it. my mom has depression. so i thought thats the reason im like that. my dad always see me alone in my room. he asked if i have any problem and i always have to pretend im fine but he told me he knows smth is not right and his heartache alot when he sees me like that. u see, if i tell him about it i will only give him more problems.. guess the only way is to see a mo and tell one of my commanders or pc. guess that i'll get laughed about my stupid thoughts...

dkcx SG

It is not advisable to lie about your medical problems to visit MO since you will generally get some sort of status or medication when you return from MO. If what you tell your superiors differs from the outcome of your visit, you could get into more trouble.

dkcx SG

Don't be afraid of being laugh at. Important is to seek treatment and depression is definitely not a laughing matter.

After attending a number of courses/worshops on the most common mental health issues, depression is 1 i really don't like to face.

Holycrap9991 SG

Ok.. thanks alot man! i'm booking in later then i think i'll talk to my PC about it..

Short Ninja SG

Nobody cant stop you from reporting sick but do go through proper channel and inform your superior about your 'depression'.Your MO should refer you to someone who can properly diagnose you.Just a story to go with it...one of the soldiers under my charge commited suicide during my NS days and this could have been avoided.

dkcx SG

Suicides in NS are rare but still occur every now and then.

While i was in service, 1 of my guards told me someone in camp had commited suicide and he was 1 of those who had to rush him to hospital. 1 former visitor to this forum also mentioned that he almost suicided and base on the things i've learnt, i would say that case was not just someone who saying they will suicide just for fun and not do it. There was enough proof to suggest that it really could have happen.

Holycrap9991 SG

later talk to my pc see how lo.. i justposted to my new unit.. quite slack one la.. doing POI.. i like new comer so dont dare to tell about my situation.. though i have suicidal thoughts at times but as for now i dont think i will. if i were to suicide i alr die during my BMT at Tekong.. kena the so xiong coy.. just hope that i really dont la.. cos i got no idea why i keep having stupid thoughts.. sister wanna go out i also think she will get kidnapped and raped.. and many more thoughts of smth bad happening to my family.. everytime think alr the jab in myheart make me so fking wanna die sia..

dkcx SG

You are just confused and letting your mind run wild.

Don't be so worried about what will happen in the future. Its more important for you to focus on the present and take small steps at a time. Taking too big steps and looking too far into the future will do you more harm than good at the moment.

Holycrap9991 SG

yeah i know taking too big steps isnt good. but i dont want to think that way. i dont know why i'll think like that also.. and yes. i forgot to mention.. my mom has depression and i saw her cried inside the room alone before.. make me feel so sad and stuffs.. grandpa got diabetes, medical fee so ex make dad stress.. lover has tumour.. make me think even more! though i know everyone has their problem and this is their problem but i dont know why i feel like its part of my problem.. i got nobody to talk to or i should say theres nobody i dare to talk about cos i surely get laughed at.. feeling so fucked up.

dkcx SG

Problems of loved ones often become 'transfer' to ownself. You are not alone in this.

You are assuming people would laugh at you. Have you ever tried in the 1st place? Find your close friends and they will often be more willing to listen and help you. Don't make negative assumptions before you even try. By assuming, you are giving yourself even more unnneccessary stresses.

Just like the earlier posts, you assume your unit people will insult you, saying you keng, your superiors will laugh or disbelieve you etc etc. You only just posted to a new unit as you said, how well do you know the people around you to judge them this way? Is it fair to them and yourself to judge people so early without giving everyone and yourself a chance?

SBS2601D SG

The one who laughs at you must surely be more fucked up.

Please seek help before you do anything that will endanger yourself and others.

A lot in NS is about give and take, you must give others a chance to help you before they can give it to you.

Holycrap9991 SG

true.. btw, i feel better after posting here and you and some others replying to this topic.. im going to have lunch with my family then i gotta go prepare and get rdy for book in later on. thanks man! really.

CenturionMBT SG

Yeap, don't worry. Nobody will fault you if you have a problem. so be brave and face it. Don't keep the problem to yourself or it will get worse.