After 2 weeks of BMT, I requested for a phycharist because I am
afriad I can't cope because I have these problems since young, and
my platoon mates are starting to get annoyed because of my defects.
So now I am currently warded to SAF Ward and I have no idea what is
going on except that the MO said I would be OOC for the moment, and
I am not allowed to book in.
And they photocopied all my educational certs and requested for my
parents to come down on Monday.
Firstly, my body got coordination problem, I cannot do well when
the movement is too complicated, example I cannot skip, cause' you
need to swing the rope and jump in synch, I cannot do it properly,
another example is Standing Board Jump, I cannot swing and carry
the force of the swing and jump, I swing already then jump, its
like not swinging at all.
Secondly, I am a super blur king, do you know got a few times, I
wear my shirt wrong side then ran down to fall in, and the other
time I took another person's towel used for 3 days then realized
its not mine, that guy even wrote his name on it.
Thirdly, I tend to force myself to vomit when I smell or see
disgusting stuff like if you talk to me, you stand too close I can
feel your breathe, I will walk to a side and force myself to vomit,
or when going to toilet, you know the smell.
Fourly, I have problem communicating with people, like I won't talk
to you unless you talk to me first, example if I find a suitable
job for myself, I don't have the guts to call up the person for
enquiries.
Fifth, I am CRAZY perfectionist, example I clear windows in a
square motion, and must be square motion, if I screw up, I will
wash the towel and re - clean again and again till I think its
perfect.
One more thing, my hands on sucks, do you know I only learned how
to tie my shoelace when I was Secondary One, and until now I can't
do it properly, I can't even fold blanklet or clothes...
So what will likely happen to me?
