if u r so troubled then say out lah, if not u so mysterious how
to help u? u keep complaining n whining also no use wat. n for all
i know, your problem might not be tat big after all 
from day one u post untill now, i still dun get what problem u
have, tats why i didn't reply much of ur posts.
n remember, u r not the only one who has problems, dude..