Here's another one fresh from the oven...
Dying Inside
Tears welled up inside
Tears I always hide
Why do I feel this way?
There are things I just cant say
From time to time I have tried
To surface these emotions that I always hide
But they are simply too painful when they show
Or maybe I just dont want to know
How it feels like when I explore fully
What they mean, truly
Ive probably tried and failed
One too many times but to no avail
Am I afraid that they will swallow?
Me up or leave me hollow?
Or have I simply chosen this way
To let the pain just slip away
The result is being numb
Intellectually smart, but emotionally dumb
That is just so not me
Im turning into an emotional zombie
By choosing not to feel, Ive become so dead
And yet, I still dread
To feel the way I feel inside
But what else can I do to hide
All the frustration, anger and hurt
Keeps building up without an outlet
How much more can I take before I die?
All I know now is that I just want to fly
Away from all this hurt and emotion
Out and away, across the ocean
To a place where I can be truly free
Free from all this misery
