I have that thought...exactly, which is what i'm going thru
somehow. But your presentation is stronger.
Those funny things are hypothetically jigsaw puzzles, which are
missing. And i have to create or figure out the completion, or draw
answers from her.
Reason to move on is it solve the puzzle...or when sanity truly
comes back .
Maybe...just maybe....the right person to save you that lost.
Highly unlikely. 
kudos to jOhO.... 