Since not much people know mi here.. =p Then maybe i should
start mine...
My bf n mi had been together for 3 years.. this year 4 year
liaox..
Last year Dec, i met a guy from a forum. We played sports with
other forum friends evey week.
After a month, I realise he's acting weird towards mi. But i treat
him as a friend still, a very good friend indeed.
About a week or 2 later.. I found out that he's fond of mi.. And
well, I'm those kind of person whereby if loved by others, i will
love them back too.. =\
Ya i know it's a bad thing, but I'm that kind of person, its hard
to control u know.. He started to treat mi very good.. I wanted to
get away from him, but the more i wanted to get away, the more i
wanted to see him.. =\
We started going out behind my bf's back.. for a month.. and often
when i wanted to go to my bf's house, he'll start to get
jealous...
I started to think that this is not the way.. So i told my bf and..
he got so angry, like he wanted to kill the guy.. I was so
scared..
I was in a dilemma to choose back my bf or the guy..
I had sleepless nights thinking n thinking, wondering if i really
love the guy whom i met 2 months ago only..
The most heartbreaking thing that a girl wouldn't want... (or for
some girls, would defintely LIKE) to see is the tears of...... 2
guys.
I duno what i had done to deserve to see something so
precious...
Maybe that would be the last time i ever seen those tears...
I wanted to continue loving my bf, but i also wanted to have a
fresh new start in my love life.. as previously the bond btw mi n
my bf isn't as strong as b4.. Many say, all becos of the time...
Longer relationship not = strong bonds?? Quite true..
In the end i chose back my bf... I can feel that the feeling for
him is stronger.. Some say becos u'd used to him, that is why u
feel that way? And i told the other guy that i hope we can still be
friends.. I know i still have a little feelings for him, but i hope
this will fade away after sometime..
After that incident, it's been 3 months now. Once in a while, I
still capture tiny bits of memories when i was with the guy... I
admit that when I'm sad, alone, i think of him.. Sometimes
wondering what he is doing right now.. And hoping he can talk to mi
often when I'm lonely.. just like normal friends.. But i believe
that might not be possible again..
